Stuck on it

This might be a post of 'complaintness'. I started reviewing my notes and getting ready for finals. I have to do better this time. You know what, I pushed myself to do better everytime. Sometimes it wasn't what I expected. It did end up making me frustrated. Be it small test like lab test or mid term test. I always hope that I will pass. Yea, when I found out that I passed, I would be hoping that I get more than just pass. And if I found out that I failed, I pushed myself more.

I guess I am always not satisfied. I told myself to study smart. But actually, I don't know how. I really did tried. It's not because I did not study enough. I think it's because I don't know how to study smart.

Now, I am not a last minute person so I tend to do my work a bit early. But when I got stuck, I tried asking friends. Oh they haven't started on it so they couldn't help me. It's not that I am pushing them to do work soon. It's just that I am stuck and I don't want to ask lecturer questions that I know they wouldn't give answer. Sometimes it's just simple questions that I don't get. Yes, I get frustrated when I am stuck, no one to help and couldn't do.

I take longer for these studies to get into my head so I need more time to digest it. There, I said it.

So pushing myself to study more? I do get lazy from studying at times. Too much to digest for my head. Oh, I am not sure where I got this from, apparently, humans are not dumb. They just have minds that work differently. Some people can digest notes very quickly compared to other people. Does that mean I am one of those people whose mind cannot digest even 60% of what they studied?