Holidays ended

The first holidays ended on the 30 April. Boy.. was I glad to see all my friends and the others. I took shower first, put them in the washing machine and then went for lunch. I think I talked a lot as I haven't seen them for so long. Hehe! I think this was the worst holidays I ever experienced. I went back to Miri, Malaysia in the first week. Before taking the flight that day, I accidentally cut my left palm. I was hungry while cutting the apple. I guess I just slipped and cut my hand. I still can't believe that I really cut my hand. I mean I am always careful. Guess that accidents do happen. I arrived Brunei on the same day and Ah Yuan koko took me to the hospital to stitch my palm. Jinn Wei was also there. Hehe! And the doctor thought they were my brothers. Haha! That night, I can't take shower or brush my teeth. I feel so fragile that night with only one hand. I was wishing that mum was around to help me.

The next day, I went straight to Miri. After arriving Miri, I had lunch and a break for a while before mum took me to the hospital to see grandma. I can't even see grandma clearly. For the next few days, I spent most of my time going out with mum, at home and also going to the hospital. On Thursday, grandma's condition started getting worse. Well, I don't want to talk so much about the details. On Saturday, Lynn's mum called us, saying that grandma's heartbeat dropped to zero. I think my heartbeat also dropped to zero that time. We all rushed to the hospital. Although I'm not that close to her, I missed her and still can't believe that was happening. I don't really like to show my emotions in front of people so I cry in my heart. Now, I thought everyone has moved on but some of the cousins are still crying. Well, that is normal. Different people react to different things. I felt my heart is crying whenever I do something that reminds me of her. sigh... what choice do we have?

After a week in Miri, I travelled back alone but I was in business class. Mum helped me to get into business class which is good. I was one of the first to get out from the plane and declaring the food. I was so bored, waiting at the international terminal. Anyway, I was alone so everytime I needed to go to the bathroom, I had to push in the trolley into the toilet. Luckily there was no one looking at me weirdly. Haha! I flew back to Christchurch that day and slept the whole afternoon. I wasn't able to sleep that night and so I started to think too much and realise that I am homesick for the first time. I have been wondering when is my turn when people complained being homesick when they were away from home.

The following next week, I fell sick. I constantly feel fainting and dizzy. How bad is that? I had mid-term tests when the breaks ended. I feel that I haven't study enough. I'm beginning to realise a lot of things.