Sometimes

Sometimes

Sometimes you feel life is meaningless
everything you did was stupid mistakes
this is wrong
that is not right.
You are told not to make mistakes
but you still do it and can't help it
You are constantly being scolded
you feel you are useless.

Sometimes you think about your past
You think life before was great
and wish for the memories to be back.
You complain of your life now.
In the next decade of your life
you regret what you have said
and thought that life a decade earlier was even better.

Sometimes when you start making friends
you get into a group of two.
You think you are closer to one of the friend,
in reality, the two are more closer than you ever thought.
You thought of joining other groups of friends
but others do not want you to join them
so you are alone.

Sometimes when you think of furthering your studies
you think of colleges and universities overseas
you want to go there
you get your wish
as you move there you feel you are homesick
you feel alone with no one to protect you
you realise it is a big world.

Sometimes you think you could turn to your family for help
but could they help you?
They have a life of their own.
You feel like turning to your siblings
but sometimes you feel pissed off by them
so you are alone.

Sometimes you think
is it necessary to live??